out2getu

I can't sleep. I'm so tired yet I can't sleep. Every time I lay my head down my brain starts working. I worry and worry and think of what ifs. My heart gets heavier and heavier and all I can think of is how quiet the room is. Music is like putting a mask over the quiet. It makes me sick physically all this worrying. I can't shut it off. I'm not even really worrying about real things. Just things that could happen in the future. Losing a friend, what that friend would be thinking before they are lost, how I would just live my life from then on. I can't talk to anyone about all this. My mom gets angry, upset, sometimes she thinks I'm just being

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die: 1. travel as far as I can 2. adopt a child 3. find love Three Names You Go By: 1. Kiki 2. Cassiday Alexandra!!! [when in trouble] 3. hun (guys always call me that. why?!) Three Screen Names You Have Had: 1. out2getu 2. dementedme1024 3. CAHolt Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself: 1. eyes 2. curves 3. boobs Three Parts Of Your Heritage: 1. black 2. French [yay Partee] 3. german Three Things That Scare You: 1. the ocean 2. outer space [shut up!] 3. you don't get to know the last one Three Of Your Everyday Essentials: 1. contact with family 2. gardening 3. seeing Ty

[X] You drink a lot of tea. [] You know what a brolly is. [] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life. [] You wanted Ben to win Factor. [X] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell." [X] Fish and Chips are yummy. [X] You can eat a Full English Breakfast. [X] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs. Total: 5 ○● A U S T R A L I A N ○● [X] You wear flip flops all year. [] You call flip flops "thongs", not flip flops. [X] You love a backyard Barbie. [x] You know a Barbie is not a doll. [] You love the beach. [] sometimes you swear without realizing. [] You're a sports fanatic [X] Y